TIRED MODE ON

 I'M SO SO SO TIRED...

IT'S ANOTHER DAWN

 When I first started my new life I believed that life was going to be good. Just like the rainbow that emerges after the rain. That was my belief. So I began the little steps leading me to a place where the rainbow is expected to come into view. 

The journey was not effortless. Sometimes  the roads that I travelled were amusing,  but some other time I had to be confronted by challenges.  When life is fun I enjoyed it and believe that the rainbow is in the adjoining space.  But When I am absorbed by the gravitational power and sunk into the bottomless well  I question my belief and ask if  my destiny to discover the rainbow is valid.  

The pictures of my past came into view. My mom the one that had always stood by my side brought so many alluring magic. I saw her as the lady with the magic wand who touched the roads that I had to travel and turned my journey to a peace of mind. I could never get rid of the beautiful thoughts that she had brought into my life. Her partner however was the pain that I had to encounter. I put them both in each of my hand. Try to weigh the justice that came  into my life, then I realize that I had more than I could ever ask. 

My children were sitting in the row next to my mom. The bliss was beyond words. When they were little, I could not help missing them not even for a single second. They have brought so many sunshine and made me dance through all the moments. I have to admit that there were cases in which they brought me down. But, my love for them is  vast and tremendous and I hardly see the impact in a longer perspective. But my companion was so insignificant that make me walk on the trails aimlessly. I expect to see his hands to lift me up when I fall, but all I get is a trial and nasty judgements. So I have long decided to walk on my own path to the rainbow with the three pairs of hands clinging on me. When I looked at this picture I realized that God's work is so real in my life. I am blessed.  

Is the rainbow real? I believe it is real. I only have to spot it. I expect to have a rainbow at the end of my journey and forgot the fact that I have encountered so many rainblows in my life. Rainbow always pops up after the rain and they do after each rain.  The dawn is breaking over the horizon, the rain will soon fall. I need to take a little sleep before it withers and give its way to the rainbow.  Wake me up when the dawn is over.